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Sep. 23rd, 2005 | 09:30 pm
posted by: visceration in xmovingonx

Hi there!
i just joined this community-- i am currently working toward moving on from several traumatic experiences in the last year..


In the past year alone, i lost a pregnancy when i had to terminate for medical complications, i witnessed a violent gun related homocide in front of my home, and i was diagnosed with SLE (lupus).
i also lived though many traumas throughout my life including rape, childhood physical and psychological abuse, familial conflicts, more abuse in the home at the hands of my brother.

My fiance and i have struggled through all this from the past year, and for me particularly, this is a time for change. i cannot erase what happened this past year and what i am still going through with the illness, but i very much need to move on in some ways from some of these things. i thought the battle was over when i finally got to a good point with all the stuff from my youth, but now i have a whole other mess to contend with. i want to be really happy again. i want these things not to hold me down so much anymore. i am ready.

i hope that i will be able to help others as well as get support. i am also employed as a counselor in the mental health field working with adolescents and children with mental illess/severe emotional disabilities, so i offer all of my skills as a therapist as well.

Thanks for reading.
:)

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Lis

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from: tyskkvinna
date: Sep. 24th, 2005 03:11 am (UTC)
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It is nice to meet you. :)

I'm so glad to hear you have reached the point of /wanting/ to be happy again. I know from personal experience that is often the hardest part of healing.

Re: Lupus. I have a very similiar disease (Permanent Lyme Disease) and have been mis-diagnosed with Lupus repeatedly. Chronic illness is something I have a very strong understanding of.. and something that I have learned, only those who have it or have spent copious amounts of time around somebody who does.. can understand.

I think what you are are doing in work is FABULOUS! I have absolutely no doubt you are making others' lives better, which is an amazing thing.

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Barren von girly

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from: visceration
date: Sep. 24th, 2005 03:18 am (UTC)
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Thank you so much for your reply. i really was hoping that starting this journal and joining this community was going to give me some of what i needed, and i already have begun to receive that... so thank you.
And with the illness stuff, you're right. No one really understands unless they are there. And honestly, my fiance, he understands quite a bit, but never as much as if he was experiencing it. So i know what you mean... literally!:)

i try to use all my experiences and heartache as a wealth of emotional knowledge to draw from in order to help the kids i work with. i have a very extensive "pain library" in my head, as it were, and i think that this is critical in my ability to understand and help them.
Anyway, thanks for the welcome.
i am going to add you.... and i will comment in your journal with my other regular username--- i wanted some extra privacy with this journal.
:)

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Lis

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from: tyskkvinna
date: Sep. 24th, 2005 04:07 am (UTC)
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I had to giggle that you call it a "pain library" as well - I often refer to that on my own.

I added both of your usernames. :) I look forward to getting to know you, it seems we have a lot in common.

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Leslie

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from: velvetcherri
date: Sep. 24th, 2005 02:05 pm (UTC)
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Hello ^___^

I also have an extensive past of sexual/emotional/physical abuse and have recently been diagnosed with bipolar disorder which feels like my biggest demon yet.

i want to be really happy again. i want these things not to hold me down so much anymore. i am ready.

This, is awesome ^__^ It takes a lot of strength to make this decision and start on this road. We will be here for you for sure every step of the way ^____^

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hollyholic

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from: hollyholic
date: Jan. 29th, 2009 03:21 pm (UTC)
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Just wanted to say hello! I'm glad you sound as though you are doing well, considering. Life will always hand you bullshit (at this point in my life, I'm finally starting to get over the notion that my life is God's sick joke) but its all about how you handle it!
Best wishes!

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